It's been raining for Years

Dark clouds over head

Clouds of Fear

Clouds of Dread

Muscles like molasses

Mind , emotional soup

Fearful anger filling me

A desperate sorrow controlling me

Throw in the towel

give up the fight

Darkness surrounds me

I can't see the light

No fizz in my blood, flat pop

Heavy with melancholy

wading through sludge

no valley ,no top

it's all just mud

A battle that has been ragging for too long

A fight I don't seem able to win

what will people think?

how would they react

If I just gave in?

Will I be alone if I confess my truth?

Will I be set apart ?

Just as in my youth

It's been raining for Years

Dark clouds just around the edge

Waiting, anticipating,

sensing my fears

To tired to fight it

I'm going down with the ship

My body isn't my own

My thoughts all skip

confused and off balance

I move about like a drone

It's past pain, or hurt it just numb and disconnected

unsure , sick and rejected

I'm lost in the fog

It's been raining for Years